That's honestly what I'm asking myself right now.

Let's just say that I ceased to exist online for some time. Alot of things brought it about. Massive changes went on and I felt the last thing I needed was to posture and try to play myself up online. I always told myself that if I started another blog I'd keep personal shit out of it, but that leaves me completely without personality whatsoever. And I'm already like that in real life. Not personable. My longtime friends are the unfortunate souls that simply tolerate me. I think when people look at me, they see my dad. And they probably do. Except my dad can score a hag with huge cans just by making some off-color racial jokes and spouting off a few stories about how he was important when he had a job. I can't even remember when the last time I felt important was.

Regardless, I'm here and I'm typing and I've narrowed it down to two reasons.

#1: I'm working on a project. It's an animated thing and it's totally old news to everyone I know personally. And I'll mention it online and embarass myself when I don't make my self-imposed deadlines, but it'll keep me motivated, I suppose. At least, I recall being more motivated back when I was posting regularly. Or maybe just busier.

Anyway, I have a schedule sort-of worked out and until I'm doing 9-to-5 again, this project is my day job. I'll take breaks to send resumes out on craigslist or whatever (just like I did at my old job), but I spend at least 6 hours per weekday on my pet. So marking my progress with it has become something of a priority, as well as planning out my next steps for myself.

#2: I'm horrible at keeping constant contact with people unless it's through a screen. So if'n ya wanna know what I'm up to... here you go.

I also wanna lay a few ground rules out (for myself). If I'm divulging plot details from my project, it'll probly be "friends only" or "private." Likewise, if I'm covering hot, sleazy or pathetic personal stuff... "friends only." That leaves my general progress and random ramblings to the adoring pubic--err... public (see what I did there?). So now that I'm done being awkward... hmm... let's see... current mood? What the hell does "quixotic" mean again? Ehh...