They have just left. They took Aaron which was earlier than we expected. I wasn't ready. They were supposed to take him mid-August. I thought before, when that time comes, I'd cry in front of them. But I didn't. Though it was good to see Russell again. He's healthier, bigger and taller.

Another bad thing happened fast rewind to this morning. Mom, my sis, and Aaron were in the clinic for Aaron's check-up. I was at Cinemalaya during that time. By the time the film (Jay) ended, I turned my cellphone back on. My sis texted me that I should go home already because Mom had collapsed. Very unexpected. I was worried. Scared. So I had to cancel my plan of shooting my third Cam Handling exercise. Went home as soon as I could.

I was relieved at the sight of Mom looking fine. My cousin was inside the house talking to her about the incident. Apparently, Mom had collapsed outside the clinic while carrying Aaron. My sis was inside the clinic when she heard Aaron crying. My sis told me she was scared of what happened. Good thing she accompanied Mom to the clinic. What could have happened if she wasn't there? She found Mom and Aaron lying on the middle of the street. Mom's slippers were all over the place. They have this same bump in their forehead. Same position, almost. I couldn't imagine it. I cry whenever I try to. Weird thing is they found lots of Mom's hair on the surface. It looks like it's removed from the part of Mom's head where the bump is. Scary.

My Tita went here. She was forcing Mom to have a medical check-up. Mom didn't want to. She said she only needed rest. Tita said she wouldn't leave if Mom's not going. Good thing Mom has finally agreed.

I hope it's nothing serious. That probably Mom is just tired because we don't have a maid anymore to look after Aaron. Basically, Mom does all the work here. I would be at school or CCP. I've been coming home at night this week because of Cinemalaya, which reminds me of this incident last night.

I was with Lynne. Our last film last night was Tribu which ended around 10:30. I didn't want to take the jeepney because I don't like their route. I mentioned to Lynne that I'd only see Tribu-boys (gangsta) if I take the jeepney and I get scared whenever I see them (no offense, I just came from watching Tribu, what could you expect?). So I decided to take the cab instead, which doesn't make it less scarier.

Lynne waited with me until I get a cab. Then we got one. She even warned Manong driver to take me home. Manong replied "Oo gusto mo with matching ." Matching what?! He didn't finish his sentence. I sat back relieved. Manong looks fine. I texted Lynne the plate number and thanked her. We were in Magallanes flyover when he said that there might not be enough gas. He slowly stops somewhere after the flyover, somewhere where there wasn't enough lights. I looked at the surrounding. I was kind of familiar of it because my high school bus used to pass by it. There were a few tambays. I asked Manong if he could gas up in a nearby gas station. He said he doesn't use gas but LPG. What the heck I don't anything about cars so I don't know if he's just making it up or it's true (I learned through Baba at the Cinemalaya earlier that it was possible). I tried to stay put and pretend I'm not scared. Manong said he could switch to Gas so he went out, opened his hood. He went back. I said I'd just get another cab and he said okay. BUT I couldn't because it was dark and I don't want to go out because of the tambays. He went back to the hood. I was watching him. Then I saw him holding his cellphone. Why the f would he bring his cellphone outside if he'd just switch that thing?! I was nervous!!!!!!!! It just suddenly came up to my mind: "Is this it? Am I gonna die? Or worse, do something to me. I'd rather they kill me. No please, Lord..." I started to panic. I was trying to open the car door to my left but it wouldn't. I remember I was knocking on the car window. He went near the door. I remember saying "Manong wag mo naman ako takutin..." Mag-isa lang ako... Parang awa mo na..." He opened his door and then I was able to open the door I was trying to open. I wanted to run but it's dark and there were these tambays. I had no better choice. He went back in. I was commanding him "Manong i-andar mo na yan." He said it wouldn't start. It took sometime til he was able to. Before that, he was telling me "Wag kang matakot di ka naman aanuhin nung mga yun..." I replied "eh bakit mo biglang ititigil dito sa gitna! Iandar mo na yan." Why the f would he have his cellphone outside malay ko ba kung may contact sya dun sa place na yun. A topless guy, just wearing shorts (one of the tambays) approached your cab no! What the f do you want me to think of that!? Malay ko ba kung contact mo yun! Kahit sino sa ganung situation, matatakot!!! I can still remember your effin face, man! Your eyes. I looked straight to your eyes when I said "Manong parang awa mo naman..." It looked like demon's eyes to me. It looked like you were unsure of what you were doing last night. You weren't aware that you were already scaring me?!!?!? It seemed to me that you're one of those guys who had been brainwashed to do something cruel but that conscience is haunting you! It seemed to me you couldn't do it but it was your plan all along. If it wasn't your intention to scare me or you really had no plans of doing something bad to me, then why wouldn't you explain yourself or defend yourself! You didn't even try to tell me "Iha calm down ka lang ano kala mo sakin kriminal" or anything like that. You could have said that when I was panicking out and I was saying "weird things" like "parang awa mo naman wag mo ko takutin." I was almost crying. My voice was cracking already. I was repeating those lines and you only said "Wag kang matakot di ka naman aanuhin nung mga yun..." once. It was you whom I was afraid of!!!

You couldn't blame if that was my reaction. You were really scary. When the engine has already started I asked him to stop in Mcdo Evangelista. At least I'm familiar with that place already. I went out. Shoved him 40 pesos only, his meter read 80 something pesos. Damn you. I went near the crowd waiting for buses and jeepneys. You even stopped in front of me. How could you! Waiting for other passengers?! Unbelievable! I don't apologize if had mistaken you for something or whatever. Clearly I was scared and traumatized. I've learned my lesson. I wouldn't stay up late outside. I wouldn't take cabs alone. I don't want that to happen again. I used to bravely do that even if Mom would always tell me not to. I learned my lesson now.

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