Could my life honestly get any more like a bad romance novel? Girl meets boy. Boy proposes. Girl plans life around boy. Boy stomps on her heart. Boy finds new girl. Itapos;s the classic tale we all know far to well but nevertheless insist will never happen to us. We think that some how weapos;re immune to that barrel of heart break that will unboubtedly spill over into our lives and change us forever. How foolish to hope for someone that wonapos;t let you down, that wonapos;t give up. How absolutely absurd. (author brings herself back into focus).

So, Iguess it was a good thing I told him I needed some time on my own to heal because what does he go and do? Thatapos;s right... He turns me in for a shiny new model of girlfriend. Letapos;s review shall we... Sheapos;s a smoker (something he has become now), she has no job, she just graduated highschool and isnapos;t in college... I hear sheapos;s a nice girl and all and totally realize that this is the jealous ex talking, so if she ever reads this blog she should realize itapos;s not personal. Itapos;s just... Facts. I eat healthy and donapos;t smoke, Ihave a job and Iapos;m going to school full time. Iapos;m mature and Iapos;ve been out of college for two years now. Letapos;s think... Besides a trim body and a pretty face is she really that much better than me?

I know itapos;s not fair to make comparisons but letapos;s face it... Itapos;s human nature. Who has the better skirt? Who looked better on picture day? It happens all the time, only in this case Ifeel Iapos;m justified. I did spend four, almost five years of my life with this guy. It is only natural to look at her and say, "hmm?"

On the one hand, Iapos;m happy for him in a sick kind of way. While I"m very much in love with him and doubt that Iapos;ll ever stop, It help but notice his change in myspace profile songs to something more fun loving, his comments to his friends about how they hit it of and how sheapos;s apos;awesomeapos;... The way he talks about her as if sheapos;s this brand new experience that heapos;s savoring. While it hurts just writing those last few sentences I honestly hope it works out. I hope she doesnapos;t break his heart like he did mine because I know exactly how it feels in this moment. I wish Icould turn back time and revert to days when Imade him feel that way, when I was the one he looked forward to seeing every day... But It. Infact Iapos;m shutting myself down to be honest. Itapos;s easier that way.

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