/>Waking up early and missing a day of school today was a waste.
I failed the parallel parking part of my license test.

As soon as the driving instrustor got out of the car, nearly before he did so, I started crying my eyes out.

My mom said, "You'll just have to reschedule your test and come out here and practice!"
Well, no sh-t sherlock, I've been trying to get you to bring me out here for weeks.

So, I cried all the way home. It was just the last thing I needed on top of everything.
And my mom has the nerve to think I did all that crying over a license.
It makes me angry that she thinks after I'll I've been through, that I'm fragile enough to break down over something like a license test. Regardless that I really would've cried over it even if everything else was going perfet in my life, I wouldn't have been in heaves and nearly hyperventilating in the car. Ugh. I love how people I've known my entire life don't even know me. And by the way, that's sarcasm. It really annoys the sh-t out of me.
Too much has been going on lately, I'm just breaking.

"I'm a 17-year-old girl, and I can't even keep myself together," is all I could think today.





Tomorrow I'm going to a local haunted house attraction thing with this kd that likes me. He has for a while.

He's a sweetie and I get in for free. He even offered me a ride there and back home. But his dad would probably drive. Or someone else. I know he doesn't have his license. Awkward. I'll probably have him take me home. My mom already has to drive me clear to my college visit early on Saturday morning. She hates "being my taxi". Whatever.

I'm such a big-ball-o'-cheer lately.
I wish I could take things back a year. I miss being happy.

I'm going to go take a shower and try to sleep,
and think of how amazing the future could, but probably won't, turn out.

Goodnight.






Ps. I didn't get my smoke break last night.
My step-dad was sleep walking / eating around the house so I figured it was too risky.
Maybe tonight, even though it's supposed to be snowing out. Ech.
Well, actually, I like snow. And holidays. So, yay!