[loving] you was/were my heroin.
and now i'm suffering the worst kind of withdrawal and i feel like this horrible drug addict who's been thrown into rehab...
yeah. 
thanks, courtney, for making a plan for my recovery, and for listening to me gripe all the time ~_~

in other news:

smoking, and what it does, as explained by Puja Sharma (me):

in your body, you have a protein called Hemoglobin. You have probably heard of this protein, and i will describe it a little for you now. It has four subunits (two alpha polypeptides, and two beta polypeptides), and each subunit contains a heme group with an iron atom (Fe). each heme iron can bind a single oxygen molecule (O2).

oxygen is not the only thing that can bind to iron in the heme group. other molecules such as cyanide (CN-) and carbon monoxide (CO) can also bind with iron. when one of these other molecules binds to the iron in the heme group, oxygen obviously can't bind there, and it is not transported to parts of the body (e.g. muscle cells) where it is needed. CO is a product of smoking tobacco, and as i just stated, CO binding blocks oxygen bindings, and is therefore detrimental to your being as a whole. CO levels as low as .02% in air intake will give you headaches and nausea, and if it increases to .1%, you will fall unconscious (a la wikipedia).

thank you, bio 1a taught by professor malkin at the university of california, berkeley.
and to you, dear reader, if you smoke, you probably will continue to do so (and i think you're stupid for it), but now you know what all you're doing to yourself, on a biological and cellular level.


&exeunt.