I am annoyed at myself right now.  All of my emotions are intense, which comes with being a neurotic sort of person.  It's exhausting, and I wish I wasn't the kind of person to experience everything so fiercely.  If I'm jealous of you, it will take hours, if not days, to pass.  I don't enjoy it.  I don't want to be this way.  I go through phases where I just "don't care", but even that's strangely intense.  I experience a whirlwind of emotions everyday, and I'm that annoying person who can be excited, sad, and angry at the same.  Why couldn't I just be some happy-go-lucky person, just happy to experience life and all the opportunities it gives me?

I also really hate the crush aspect of being single.  I get really intense about it, and it's pretty exhausting for...  everyone involved.  I'm sorry to subject everyone to it...

I'm going home tonight, and I don't want to.  I'm pretty much there and gone in a flash.  I wouldn't go home if it wasn't Emily's birthday, but I'm not going to try to see any of my friends at home.  It's not that I don't want to, but it would be tiring to try to fit people in.   I'm there for Emily, and then I'm out.  I guess it couldn't have come at a better time because, with the Stars show tomorrow night, I would've been sitting home alone anways, so might as well see the family.  Emily will really like her presents...  I got her two DS games.  She'll be thrilled.  On another bright note, I'll have decorations for my unwelcoming room when I come back Saturday night.

My double labs begin in approximately 12 minutes.  Au revoir...