I came home tonight and picked up the phone with no fear. I phoned him and told him I couldn't make it out to his place for Halloween because I failed my road test. We laughed, he gave me advice, and I told him I'd talk to him again soon. I also told him that if I pass my next road test, I'd come see him and we'd go for coffee.



I was a little nervous during my road test, and during the last 40 seconds of my test is when I failed it.
I would have passed with 7 demerits (I didn't look backwards enough while doing my parallel park so there were 2 points there, and I didn't shoulder check while switching into the right lane on central, so there was 5 demerits.) , but I made one big mistake.
I was at a T shaped intersection, and I was making a right hand turn down the road with no oncoming traffic. I didn't make a complete stop at the red light. I rolled through. instant fail.




There's been a lot this past month, hasn't there?

Octobers have always been interesting for me...

I am feeling so... Whelmed. Over. Under. Side.

I just feel like life is taking me by the hand and running. Running to the point where I start to stumble, but then my feet just don't even touch the ground anymore, and I'm flying by all these places and people, waving and laughing and crying as I go by. Waving for the people, laughing for the joy they bring me, and crying for the pain in my arm for being whipped through the air at such an impossible speed. It's like a child with a helium balloon, running with the balloon trailing behind them.... having to push through the current of the air to keep up.



I went out for coffee with Jerry and Ruth last night after I finished freaking out about calling my dad and we were out for a while... it was good. I really enjoyed talking with them, I felt so much better after wards.

Then tonight I went and volunteered at the Haunted House with Jess and had a blast. It was such fun, and I cant wait for tomorrow night.

I just wish I could be sharing all of these experiences with my Husband, and sharing his experiences too. I wish we both had each other to fall on at all times. Knowing no matter how the day went, we could always just hold each other after the sun goes down and there are no more commitments outside our own little world.  But soon enough, and we can be ignorant of the world after hours once again. I love my Matthew so much. I am so proud of him and I am so in love with him and I just want to be by his side.


I feel victorious in life.