They really wrote this song about James' mom.

First off, Bette Midler's "God Help the Outcasts" from the Hunchback of Notre Dame is HORRIBLE. Oh god.
They should have gotten Ringo Starr to sing it.


BLARG. My everything, it hates me.

Been really BLEH this week. Starting to feel a bit better. Going to the art store with Yinghua tomorrow. Previously when I felt like AUGH, I went to the art store with her sister and managed to walk it off. Hopefully this will happen again.


High point of week:
Being in an anime store where the clerk was explaining he was proud to not have any pirated merchandise. The case he was leaning on was FILLED with professional fakes. I don't think anything in it was real.

Also found a nice gothish store at Ingram. Bought a frilly shirt. mixed feelings, as I don't really care for the material the frills are made from. They had fantastic shoes, but I didn't get them cause they were pinstriped, and they'd drive me crazy putting it with clothes.



My muscles keep twitching, and I've been limping around. My shoulder HATES me madly, and I've been making many attempts on my left hands life. (Oh god it hurts. I can't open bottles and squeezing out shampoo feels like DEATH. But I'm only attacking the left one. Probably cause I need another hand to aid in my attack, but I can't USE that one.) I've slammed it in doors, burnt it and started EATING it. I'm really not sure WHY I'm doing this.

I've also been requesting people to punch me in the left shoulder, because it FEELS NICE. I have this insane theory that if I stab myself there, it might start feeling better, but I have no real basis for this. I think if I slice everything to hell, nothing will be left to hurt. Or maybe if I cut the muscles so they can relax. I have NEVER relaxed those muscles ever, and I bet it would be REALLY NICE TO DO.

It also always feeling like something is squeezing my chest WAY to damned hard, and for some reason, I think being naked will remedy this. (It doesn't.) I hope my heart isn't expanding more, cause that would like suck, and potentially bring like, random death. Besides, people would ask how I died, and they'd be like "cardiac tamponade" and people would laugh every time.


A
- Available: TAKE ME, TAKE ME.
- Age: early 20's
- Annoyance: looooots of things. X__x

B
- Beer: No.
- Birthday/Birthplace: January 23, unknown
- Best Friend: Yinghua? Lina? Jeannie's my soul mate, right?
- Body Part on opposite sex: hands. Prefferably like Seth or Jeannie's crazy hands.
- Best feeling in the world: Unconciousness
- Blind or Deaf: Neither.
- Best weather: Pleasantly warm, completely cloudy.
- Been in Love: Probably not.
- Been bitched out?: Well, really just yelled at.
- Been on stage?: Yes.
- Believe in yourself?: No.
- Believe in life on other planets?: Why not?
- Believe in miracles: No.
- Believe in Magic: ...In a young girl's heart?
- Believe in God: He isn't all too nice I'd think.
- Believe in Satan: He drives a convertible with A BACK SEAT. How jealous I am. ;__;
- Believe in Santa: Never really did.
- Believe in Ghosts/spirits: Something makes sounds in my wall and it isn't an insane squirrel. DD:
- Believe in Evolution: Why wouldn't I?

C
- Car: Akio, baby~ And Seraphitus~~
- Candy: Sugar cubes.
- Color: White
- Cried in school: Maybe when I was really little?
- Chocolate/Vanilla: Neither.
- Chinese/Mexican: As in food? Mexican. As in sexy? Chinese.
- Cake or pie: Cake. Unless the pie is berry and warm.
- Country to visit: One that only requires a teleport away.

D
- Day or Night: Night
- Dream vehicle: HMM. I love Akio though. D:
- Dance? No.
- Dance in the rain? No.
- Do the splits?: No.

E
- Eggs: yay
- Eyes: What about them?
- Everyone has a(n): completely unique facet about themselves.
- Ever failed a class?: Techincally yes, but it was changed on the paper.

F
- Full name: My mommy won't tell me. ;__;
- First thoughts waking up: AUGH IM CONSCIOUS
- Food: It can be delicious.

G
- Greatest Fears: everything.
- Giver or taker: both
- Goals: goals? I have those/
- Gum: Is sometimes delicious.
- Get along with your parents? Not generally.
- Good luck charm: none.

H
- Hair Color: Very dark
- Height: Too damn short.
- Happy: Wait... what is... happy?
- Holiday: Everyone loves Arbor Day. EVERYONE.
- How do you want to die: DDD:
- Hate: It's like love, reeally damn obsessive and takes all your time.  Generally ends in losng one person instead of making
one more. ...Sometimes, that might be a good thing.
- Ice Cream: Sweet Creme.
- Instrument: The viola is the most exciting insturment EVER.

J
- Jewelry: My Rose Signet~~~
- Job: Interior designer. ...No seriously.

K
- Kids: nooooo
- Boxing or Karate?: I dunno, boxing CAN be badass.
- Keep a journal?: ...

L
- Longest Car Ride: Possibly from school to home... FIFTEEN MILES, WHAT THE FUCK.
- Love: It's like hate, reeally damn obsessive and takes all your time.  Generally ends in making one more person instead of losing one. ...Sometimes, that might be a good thing.
- Letter: The squiggy.
- Laughed so hard you cried? Close.
- Love at first sight? Obsession at first sight? I find myself guity of this for unexplained reasons.

M
- Milk flavor: is the best flavour!!
- Movie: it's like, pictures in motion man.
- Mooned anyone?: no
- Marriage: Never thought about it ever.
- Motion sickness?: OH GOD
- McDonalds or BK?: chiiickeeeen

N
- Number of Siblings: unkown
- Number of Piercings: none
- Number: 53!

O
- Overused Phrases: delicious
- One wish: I'm not exciting or fully developed enough for one.
- One phobia: EVERYTHING.

P
- Place you’d like to live: Somewhere not so damned sunny.
- Perfect Pizza: The mushroom/spinach pizza from Luciano's.
- Pepsi/Coke: DIET COKE

Q
- Quail: Don't they have funny things on their heads?
- Questionnaires: Sometimes.

R
- Reason to cry: n/a
- Reality T.V.: AUGH
- Radio Station: I don't know how to use a radio. ;__;
- Roll your tongue: ...okay?

S
- Song: [J.A. Seazer] Freedom
- Shoe size: 7 or so.
- Salad Dressing: RANCH. HOW DELICIOUS.
- Sushi: That rice is VILE. So is the nori smell.
- Skipped school: Yes.
- Slept outside: Unfortunately.
- Seen a dead body? Yes.
- Skinny dipped? No.
- Shower daily? No.
- Sing well? I don't sing much.
- In the shower? Never.
- Stuffed Animals? EVERYWHERE.
- Single/Group dates? none.
- Strawberries/Blueberries? blueberries
- Scientists need to invent? if I knew, I'd be a scientist.

T
- Time for bed? When I pass out.
- Thunderstorms? wha?
- TV? no
- Touch your tongue to your nose? no.

U
- Unpredictable?: Sometimes.

V
- Vegetable you hate: I generally like vegetables.
- Vegetable you love: broccoli! corn! carrots! green beans!
- Vacation spot: boo vacation.

W
- Weakness: I'll never tell!
- When you grow up: Probably still interior designer.
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you? None. Maaaybe James.
- Who makes you laugh the most? Possibly Yinghua. (LIKE A SMALL DOG.)
- Worst feeling: It would be fantastic if I could MOVE in mornings. Screw you leck of love, you are only second.
- Wanted to be a model?: Never.
- Where do we go when we die? I'd prefer to be god.

X
-X-Rays: Had too many. lots of my chest and hands.

Y
-Year it is now: 2008
-Yellow: The most awesome power ranger.

Z
- Zoo animal: SLOTHS
- Zodiac sign: Aquarius

LAST PERSON WHO…
1. Laid in a bed beside you? A bed next to mine? Yinghua's is maybe two feet away.
2. Last person to see you cry? n/a
3. Went to the movies with you? I'm... not sure...
4. You went to the mall with? Myself.
5. You went to dinner with? Yinghua and her family
6. You talked to on the phone? James
7. Made you laugh? Dunno.


01. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
Uhh... Hm. Safely end a bad obsession? Did I do that this year? (Oh wait, that was the end of last year. Nevermind.)

02. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Never made one.

03. Did someone close to you give birth?
No.

04. Did anyone close to you die?
Uhh... Hm. I don't THINK so.

05. What countries did you visit?
None.

06. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
happines. delicious happiness.

07. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
I can't name a date, but moments, yes.

08. What was your biggest achievement(s) of the year?
Having a better in school job than YOU.

09. What was your biggest failure(s)?
UHH. Lots of failed medical tests. Oh god.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
...It's kinda a permanent thing.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Hmm. Dunno.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
James, for not shooting the evil waitress.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
The evil waitress.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Food. Medicine. Art.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
James visited for a whoooole week! It only took him like, seven years.

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
That song from Denkyuushiki Ammonite that makes the three of us really awkward feeling. But that's REALLY not a year thing, and I'm making a strech to attribute it to this.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you...

i. happier or sadder?
probably sadder, but I have no idea.

ii. thinner or fatter?
I think fatter. D:

iii. richer or poorer?
Probably about the same.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
eating. I started eating less thanks to FUCKING SCHOOL and now I can barely eat and I'm so slow and augh.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
taking my checkbook out.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
in the past with my time machine.

22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
No. I hope not.

23. How many one-night stands?
None.

24. What was your favorite TV programme?
...House. D:

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
...Hmm. Maybe. Though I hate EVERYONE, so hrm.

26. What was the best book you read?
Nothing! I read nothing!!

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
just furthered finding things I already knew I liked.

28. What did you want and get?
A build a bear kitty. I'm so easily satisfied. (He roars! He's really a clean shaven lion.)

29. What did you want and not get?
looooove. also, that seazer CD set.

30. Favorite film of this year?
...I saw NOTHING that came out this year. ...I think.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Uhh... I don't remember, but I'm pretty certain it was alot of nothing.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
looove. or money. or KITTY. Yeah, I'd like the kitty.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
Leene-ish.

34. What kept you sane?
...You're assuming I am indeed sane.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Delicious young Seazer. Hell, old Seazer too.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
McCain losing.

37. Who do you miss?
Everyone ever. ...Well, except people I madly hate.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Did I meet people?

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
Rejection is the key to potential happiness! Everyone, tell me we have no future together, just in case I ever obsess over this. (EVERY LAST ONE OF YOU.)

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
METALLIC FETUS