So You Think You Have An Addiction?
Here Are Some Signs That You May Have A Problem.

1) You get frequent urges to partake in the activity you are addicted to.
2) Your friends are concerned and try to intervene.
3) You sometimes change priority's in order to take part in your 'addiction'.
4) You write 4 blogs in the space of 24 hours.

I know, I know what you're all thinking... Ashley has a severe problem - she fits all of the above criteria, especially numero .. eh... four-o? We should intervene. We should get livejournal to cut her off. Well, I only have one thing to say to that. "You can't make me *sticks tongue out rather rudely*".

Anyways, I'm not addicted, I'm just extremely glad that I'm in the mood for writing again, and I'm just trying to get that inner monologue out of my head and onto... virtual livejournal paper hahah. And don't worry, the frequency of my livejournal posts will soon die down to once every blue moon and all that jazz. Just give it time...

So today I've done... nothing really. But I have been thinking things through. Like, despite the fact that I wrote those short stories when I was 15 and they are a teeeeeny bit cheesy, I still wouldn't change anything about them and I still reckon that they were pretty good. And once again my passion for writing, and drama, and all that jazz is ignited. So I'm thinking that perhaps next semester I'll try and concentrate on that.

Which brings me to the question that will be on my mind most this summer: should I come back here next September? Well, on one hand I'd be pretty distraught if Dustin didn't come back, and all that jazz. And I don't really know where my life is heading, or what I want to do. Maybe I should chill and think things over for a while before wasting money pursuing nothing.

On the other hand, the summer may be just what I need to figure out where I want to go in life. I mean, I'm already relatively certain that I want to start pursuing writing and acting again. And I mean writing as in novels, short stories and screenplays, not as in essays and such. I don't know though, because I also kind of want to attempt psychology again. I guess I could give it another semester to see how I do when I try hard, but I don't know haha. It'll be a long summer figuring out what I want to do with life. Also, still hoping/wishing/praying that Dustin will come back haha. Don't want to lose the thing that's made me happier than I've ever been. :( ♥

Anyway, enough about that. Frick it's warm out. I'm SO warm right now and I'm wearing just a t-shirt and pj shorts. It's 5C outside according to my Mozilla Weatherfox add-on haha. I am SO screwed when I go to Spain and it's 25C+. I am going to melt. And sunbathe. A lot. Speaking of which, I have a tanning appointment tomorrow at 4.30pm. Must. Not. Forget! Ahh.

I am so bored of sitting in the house all day. I went outside once, and that was only to go to dining hall. Stupid cancelling of plans, god dammit! I really want to walk to Subway, enjoy the warm breeze haha. Or even just go on a walk anywhere. I just want to hang out outside of the house. Hahah if I wasn't so sure my roommates asleep I'd go and get her - she's been wanting to go on a walk too for a while haha.

Anyway, this is probably another long one so I should probably go even though I'm not done. I'll try and harness my creativity some other way, like an imaginative way to make Mr. Noodles. Haha, or something like that...

Toodles.


Ash xX


PS You stay classy, San Diego!