Well im back but i really dont know why... i have officaly given up and its pretty hard. she keeps trying to comunicate but i dont respond. i have felt this comming for somw time now.. i wiah we could at lease be friends bur i know that that is not going to happen.

i have no idea what i should eat dont eat this dont eat that i wiah i just couldnt eat all together!! does any one have any ideas to help me get back on track??

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.... I thought I could pull it together...I thought that I would be able to be mom and dad, but I have failed. I feel like this journey has been too much for me...I am a delicate Soul. In a way I wiah I could turn off whatever happened when I became a mom. I use ro keep everything under control...everything inside me. If I needed to be a certain way...I would do it, and I could be anything. Once I ...

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i has a wonderful dream last night. i woke up with a smile on my face. i wiah my life was really like that dream...i think i'd be happy forever. i'd never be alone. i had him all for myself. there was a shit load of my friend having a sleep over in an empty train station. then we ended up at disney land riding the spinning teacups. it was Alice in Wonderland-esqe. then we all went back to the ...