Sad really

... with me? I look at other people and what they have and it just seems so perfect and i just want it to be like that for me, i know they probably dont think its perfect and somebody somewhere probably thinks im perfect but urghhhhhhhh i dont no. Anyway i havnt really made this for anyone to read i was going to write it in a word document but seen this instead. Happy christmas x  

im TOO HAPPY to worry abt the major declaration shit. ^^

... that i cant scream jus now cos er, mum's asleep & bro (as usual), wasnt very happy abt the fangirling thing. HAHA. they missed out all the fun in the world. too bad~ urghhhhhhhh!!!!!!! ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ ok shuddup. lemme recount wad i see ok? ^^ first they showed BIGBANG  (also) fooling ard backstage.  being as ecstatic as me. and the one hogging the whole screen- ok maybe nt ...

What the fuck??? Why will i have a infection that makes me look so hideous, & i cant eat, and even talk properly. Urghhhhhhhh! First week of my holidays spoilt ):

... came by. I don't dislike her really, but she makes me feel really bad about myself. She's so perfect. She's really really thin and beautiful and she's good at everything I like. We both like painting and photography but she's waaay better than I am. I dunno. She just makes me feel like a pathetic and crappy little person, and yet I can't dislike her since she's so kind and likeable. Urghhhhhhhh.