New beginnings, new unconfidence.

I hate that feeling when you are about to start a new semester, and you can't sleep or feel secure. In this case, going into 2nd semester with a composition that a legit ensemble is going to read, as well as the head composition major, and thinking it's gonna suck. To put it in a ghetto way: I need to grow some balls. Blehhh. For those that didn't know, the people that took my phone (the ...

... of arrogance always keeps me away from being like that, what I write will always be terrible no matter what people say. But the fact that I think it's terrible, when carefully kept away from the border of unconfidence keeps me writing. I keep writing so I can try one day to not be terrible, but I don't stray into the feeling that everything I write is too awful to put down. Or rather, I didn't ...

A Day of Learning- Most Definately!

... I've been spoiled by Splash, who is for the most part a very self-helpful horse.  Z is not self-helping on any safe level, and it's not at all fair to Splash to make him deal with unconfidence when I'm asking for something outside of his thresholds. -RB and Riding are the two "R"s:  The two things that cause any problems to become apparent in big ways.  Z's occasional pushiness doesn't seem like...

|FF| First YAMAKI Story -- Refuge

... was bothering him was definitely getting it's way with him. When she looks closer, his eyes were starting to swell and he is visibly shaken. She has never seen him so vulnerable. His stance screams unconfidence unlike his usual cool straight deamenor. This is not the same man she had grown so accustom to. "Yamapi." She whispers. His lips tremble. Why is her voice so soft? Why is she looking...

Pour que tu meme encore (take 2)

... . V - Vegetable you hate: um... actually, I eat all of them. But since I have to choose: carrots! carrots rock!! carrotus are darn nice vegetables!! W - Worst habit: self unconfidence X - X-rays you've had: wrist, bottom, vagina, thorax. Y - Yummy food: pastries Z - Zodiac sign: Capricorn What does your drawing say about YOU? The Last Thing Last Cigarette:...

..., they were forced to hear the single-minded gaiety of friends and foes. Moments later, a tense silence clouded the room in anticipation of the promised performance. The first was a familiar tune; a song of nervous unconfidence – ba-dump, ba-dump, ba-dump – played to the heedful audience. Then they began a softly murmured chorus, faces flushed with embarrassment at their peers’ amused grins.