thinthinthin

Hey everyone! It's been a couple days since I posted, so here I am! Down 4 pounds! :) Here's my stats: CW 180 HW 186 LW 145 GW1 170 or less (by Christmas) GW2 120  or less (by May) I know my second goal seems a little non-realistic, but I'm gonna work my ass off! I've been taking Stacker 3  2/day for 2 weeks and working out 30 min- an hour Eating between 200-500 cal/day No soda, sweets, fats ...

I have failed my ana. I have failed myself. Tomorrow I will not eat. And I will not eat the day after that. Or the day after that. I will be thinthinthin.

Let's get physical.

...good. And I don't know, usually I give up in the first week. But I'm not going to this time, I'll just imagine myself looking 10x more healthy and happy. It's not that I want to be thinthinthin, I just don't want to hate almost everything about my body. On another note, Zach's little siblings are very spoiled and the mom makes it so easy for them to walk all over her. And he keeps telling her ...

happy, but scared!

 My best friend is coming to visit me in 2 weeks. I'm water fasting for the next 3 days (maybe a couple fruits/veggies). She hasn't seen me in months (before I gained a bunch of weight), so I need to be thinthinthin for when she gets here. How can I stop the cravings? I'm super broke.. I just ran out of cigarettes today and don't have $$ for any more. and I've only got half a pack of gum.

[sigh]

... he calls "good food"...luckily I only gained .4 of a pound, but all the same, I was hoping to be down to 140. By the end of March I WILL be at least 130. I need to get back down there...this college weight-gain was NOT COOL. My boyfriend tells me all the time how beautiful I am, but I know I won't be able to see what he sees until I can look in the mirror and see THINTHINTHIN. SS&TT loves.

Today

...--start a new habit of no eating, nothing... I have 3 weeks until I start work there, so I really want to use this time to whittle myself down as small as I can, so when I start I'll be THINTHINTHIN & it won't be some dramatic change. People will start knowing me as the very very thin girl, and they'll always just think I'm naturally that way... not if I start there like I am now & THEN lose ...