i cant live with or without you.

I will love you when the snow falls I will love you in the end small footsteps stride to your door, waiting - never for particular things just waiting, to wait. you lay here, next to me yet not so close with my eyes i try to unravel you unravel everything - words are harsh my love especially mine. i love you even when unravelled, even once the wait is over. could i ever make sense of it all? ...

Fanfic: Life’s Funny Way

Title: "Life’s Funny Way" Author: J.J. Warning: It's an AU BASED ON THE MANGA . It contains some Japanese words (the Dictionary is at the bottom), a bit of sappiness... Notes: Kind of Pre- ‘X’ since ‘X’ should start around April… and written for Subaru-kun’s birthday but, as usual, I’m late… Disclaimer: "Tokyo Babylon" and "X" belong to Clamp. I'm merely using their characters ...

Curiosity got its hands on my cat and fucked it up.

And i am sitting here wondering whether life is a series of events leading up to one pinnacle, or a moment that eventuates to a series of events, yes i am an intellect although my spelling is quite off. So should i be sitting here worrying about little things that could potentially lead up to the one climax of my life! Or Should i be not worried about these little things as much because fate has...

Of the most tiniest details

Sometimes i get very extremely annoyed at the tiniest details. Sometimes they seem to save my life. but not today. maybe i should be heartless and not joke. or maybe i can be the good person. should i? nah. i'll just be heartless, even if it means being completely devoid of feelings i mean it. insyallah it'll never mix with other things just this salaams

And you ask me what I want this year And I try to make this kind and clear Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings And desire and love and empty things Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days So take these words And sing out loud Cuz everyone is forgiven now Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again And it's someplace simple where ...

01/17/2007

01/17/2007 The Things I've felt more recently Clutters of lost thoughts. I see myself giving in to only impossible dreams, when there are things out there for me. Why would I settle for just anything though? My imagination intangles itself with realistic measures and I'm left hanging off the side of some thing I can't begin to understand. I've faded out already that to be kept quiet would be ...

SONG OF JULY!

I've decided that even month needs a song, so this is july's! Let love in by the GOO GOO DOLLS You wait, wanting this world To let you in And you stand there A frozen light In dark and empty streets and You smile hiding behind A God-given face But I know you're so much more Everything they ignore Is all I need to see You're the only one I ever believed in The answer that could never be ...

free write, blah

just realized i'm not gonna die cuz i was never born. i mean, sure, i was brought into this world on jan. 30th, but before that i was just different packets of energy, still existing in different forms, and when i leave this world, i will just become different forms of packets of energy again. and on and on i go. that is so relieving. i'm not going to die! it's sounds so trite, but really it only...