People like us we go insane sometimes when everyone else thinks we  finally ought to have it made. I know. Flirting with it's seductive embrace day after day, I came to wonder if I ought to just go to the hospital, if maybe the best thing was to merely medicate my condition back into ignorance. It's a sharp shiny razor. Uphill wet and dark as hell, where there's no more vodka or sugar daddy ...

i've been having nightmares about my dad bringing personal effects of mine to my psychiatrist.  this is because he has done it before. I'M SO EAGER AND I FEEL LIKE LIFE IS MAYBE GOOD i didn't mean to type that whole first bit in italics or that previous bit in all caps but it happened so i guess like that it will stay at this rate every band i like will break up before i turn eighteen.  ...

This Particular Time

This morning I was listening to this song on Itunes. I was thinking how important you have been in my life. You were like this beautiful wave that came at a time when I needed to know that I was worth being cared about. At that particular time YOU babe, came and you showed me that I was worth loving. You taught me about how to be a friend, that I still had unresolved issues that I needed to work ...

She said “How’m I gonna leave When you’re crying on my sleeve? Looks like I will have to stay At least until the washing’s dry Baby you’re just the same as me, I feel that way once in a while, But everything’ll be alright...” Gah. Still wish I had passed my test, but Steve's words of wisdom are encouraging. But it's like... A driving test is like having to complete 40 minutes of a video game ...