how ive been feeling

..., your first love, your first everything and just like that hes gone. and off to another girl, and you are now meaningless. that shit hurts i almost wanted to kill myself if you know what im sayingggg. it was that depressing and painful, but of course i would never do something that psycho. I love life. its just weird not have someone so important present like they used to be i want to ask him...

... rest of the time, Courtney and I pretty much walked around campus and let ourselves be mistaken for college kids. It's a good life, being a twin. You get checked out more, if you know what I'm sayingggg. Oh, and I bought Lullaby by Chuck Palahniuk while I was down there. I'll read it as soon as I'm done reading Tom Sawyer for English. Which, by the way, I kindof think sucks. The world has ...