i dont get it...

... class at church which is always fun. so overall, good day...and im still sitting here fighting tears. im still sitting here sad. wat is that? ive felt plenty of pain in my life but this? this is ridiculuosly indescribable. this is always there...never ending. no matter what it's hangin over my head. i miss him so much it's killing me inside. i dnt know what to do. why did i let these feelings ...