... now I have no one at all.  It sucks to smile at him, for him to smile back, to joke around with him, and just..God.  So many feelings I choose to ignore, because they can no longer exist.  Shit fucking is retareded.   Good thing everytime I'm around him I'm stoned as shit or on my way to being there.  It'd be so easy for us to be best friends, that's what we should be at least, but I'm not ready ...

Kaoru, Kaoru, EATS CASHEWS!!!

...for you" and handed me an envelope containing my bank statement for the month. I replied with "Thanks, I'll read it on the toilet!" and proceeded to do so while laughing like an idiot. Apparently I'm retareded and spent $25 on overdraft fees alone! Whoo! I'm doin' great!! You probably don't want to hear about me reading on the toilet, I just thought it was pretty funny... X3 Yeah...I think that'...