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... passions rise I do find I supprise myself but this is rare, far more often I am passive prefering to receve and react then to put forth (and risk rejection) and far far to offen althought it is infrequent I am ...up is the only option or untill I reach a point where I have no idea how to re/act and receve no hints that I can fahom only then does frustration bring me back to the state of water to be ...