a different form...

... festering here and there my arm does not want to move something ripped and failing. Festering here and there little pains cripple us all something ripped and failing slipping closer to the end Little pains cripple us all ner enough life for living slipping closer to the end so much I need to do Never ...

What the fuck?!!!

...I am alone at night and tempted to go and eat I should recite a creed of some sort. It's obvious that it's not hunger pains which make me eat. Cause I get serious hunger pains and ignore them like a pro...so what is it? It's when someone upsets me, thats one. I think food will make me feel better,...

More stuff to worry about.

I'm having side pains again. The last time I had this problem, the pain was towards the front and only on one side. I figured it was just a cyst bursting. As most of you know, I have PCOS and they found several cysts on my ovaries. I've heard from fellow PCOS'ers that cysts can burst and most of the time you don't even notice it. The pain went away after a couple of days. This time, it's really ...

A restless night for this mama

had contractions last night, about 1 or 2 an hour all night long. It was tough to sleep and some of them were even pretty uncomfortable. Since I didn't have any other weirdness (like bleeding or really bad pains), I didn't stress it too much. I figure everything in me is just preparing for Wilder's arrival! WEEEE! This morning when I woke up, my tummy was so achy and TIGHT. Plus I was so exhausted...

How long has it been since I've asked a stupid question? I think I'm overdue.

All day today my abdomen has been a bit . . . ouchy. Not really crampy, but like I did about 5000 crunches yesterday, and now I'm sore. Especially if I try to move at all, which adds some nice shooting pains down to my groin and into my ribs too. It hurts if I move, it hurts if the baby moves, it hurts if I bend or even start to slouch, it hurts when I breath. I haven't had a proper yawn in days, ...

Broken finger? And various musings

... my right hand). It got nice and purple, then the bruises went away and the swelling went down. And then--just before I headed out this morning on my daily trek to work, I started getting sharp, shooting pains around the first joint (where the bruising had been its worst). I grabbed the finger brace we have lying around here and put it on. I made myself wear it all day. It hurts, and the damned ...

Phantom pains . . .

. . . are interesting to talk about and describe, but not pleasant to experience. Just now, I experienced pains along the back of my no-longer-existing right achilles tendon. And to think I used to wonder, when I first heard about phantom sensations, what it would be like. At least the stabbing pains on the "tendon" were only very temporary.

Growing Pains

... life. but just like everyone else. I have drama. I cant stand drama UGH. I know this entry is kind of alllll over the place. But my brain is sooo scattered.  I was listening to the song growing pains and it reminded me of Brandon. Brandon is one of my moms ex boyfriends son who was very close to my brother who passed away due to drug overdose. This song remindes me of when everything in life was ...

hunger pains

i dont get hunger pains anymore my stomach just aches, like im sick so i dont have the feeling of being hungry anymore so when i do eat it makes me feel soo guilty because i never think im actually hungry. does anyone know what im talking about? lovexx

Today was not stellar. I had cliping colleagues, flaky friends, and to top it all off - someone rear ended me on the way home, so now I have a mild case of whiplash. So, yes. Today, not exactly great. But the car is OK. Not a scratch. So, small mercies, I guess. My neck aches though. I had a strained shoulder already, this is not helping. And I played badminton last night and my legs are ...