am i seriously that much of a loser that i can never get to be normal?!?  a couple of weeks ago I decided that it was time to help myself and start a "nutritionaly balanced lifestyle"  yeah right!  i started eating "normally" like 5 small meals a day - healthy 5 meals a day and i went from 91 to 100 pounds! now not only am i way over my goal weight, but i feel so disgusting and worthless!  (again...