punk diddy.

i was laying there thinking of the time passed between us the beauty of how we got where we are theres so many reasons why i fell in love with you everyone of them unique you smiled and held me like no one else when you kissed me i felt my future pure and safe inside you i could stay there forever your my knight in shining grunge your my boo un-ghetto and true though things are clear now i know ...

I FUCKING HATE MY HOUSE i hate it so much i cant even stand it i was having such a good time at stephs house why couldn't i just stay there?! i had to come home and just be reminded of how much my parents hate me oh by the way im not even getting a christmas tree this year MERRY FUCKING CHRISTMAS TO YOU TOO. i just want to cry im holding myself back because like i cant cry now because...

crap

ok .. before i start ranting and raving i only ever write when i feel like shit.. which isnt that often anymore so dont get the wrong impression so. i feel like shit., and i dont know why., i just get so worked up about stuff and stressed and i feel so out of control and i get so angry and i just want to die. ahhhh its fucking holidays and i stil feel like there is a million and one things to ...

procrastination

man im good at it. man my stomach its a black hole right now its insatiable even though its mass is infinite it can never stop eating everything that gets sucked by the black hole reduces to a spec of dust even a whole entire moon gets reduced to a spec of dust just by a little black hole which is also as big as a spec of dust well thats stephen hawking's theory as i remember it..... i probably ...

Jessie and Jinxy

my cat is beong unnaturally nice she just walked in my moms computer room and just jumps on my lap she walked around the desk a little bit and then she cuddled up i my lap and started purring like MAD it was SO loud so I started to pet her (I mean, she obviously wanted attention) and then she was like, knitting my leg I know it means that they love you BUT MY GOD IT TICKLED and after a few ...

FAILED AGAIN

 i failed again im so fat and pathetic and weak i cant even go a day without having a binge now its horrible and when the new day starts and i think this time things will be different, someone makes me stressed or angry and i run back to the fridge i nearly told my dad today that i have an ed and to help me stop binging, but i didnt. twice today my friends joked i was fat and i know they dont ...

tired ..

yey XD  so last night i meet my very good friend that i didn't saw for 2-3 month i missed her so much !!  its kinda sad because she lives 5  minuets away from the city i live X:  Never mind

she said its in our hands but now its in my hands all i have ever wanted all i have ever wanted is death all ive wanted is to die for years death has been my comfort i have the means i have the pills i have it all and now its all too soon its too early and im not ready to go twenty-nine was my cut off and now i find it too too soon i want all the time that i can own i want...

Whitney You Rocked Pre Bobby Brown

Clock strikes upon the hour And the sun begins to fade Still enough time to figure out How to chase my blues away Ive done alright up til now Its the light of day that shows me how And when the night falls the loneliness calls Chorus: Oh I wanna dance with somebody I wanna feel the heat with somebody Yeah I wanna dance with somebody With somebody who loves me Oh I wanna dance with somebody I ...

ben threw all of my things outside of his apartment and kicked me out in a fit of rage which was great i loved carrying all of my things across monroe ave at night in the rain then he asked for rent money..HAHAHA yeah no. he was so mean to me, i hated going back if he was going to be there i'm glad thats over with even though i would have liked to move out a bit differently i tried making it ...