I hope you choke and die

... him. He doesnt want me. Go figure. Nothign new. Ive dealt with it forever. God I want soemone to hold me righ tnow. Maybe Ill call up one of my friend...No I wont because thats the old me speaking. I dont needss a guy to be happy. I can be happy on my own! I can! God I love him. Why czant I be different? Im too much of mee to be in a successful relationship with him/ Anyways today at work I ...