I've been gone... for a while two weeks dealing with so much stuff I don't even have time to sleep or take care of myself but somehow I've had so much time to binge... every moment I got , on my way to class i'd grab something, in between classes too God, it's been so depressing seeing that month of good and uninterupted hard work go to waste in so little time I wanna start over I wanna be ...

Just a Quick Update

I'm an idiot not totally just like the high school version of myself should DiE! hahaha okay maybe i should explain I read another LJ like now && it was the aftermath of the break-up. I'm just torturing  myself but not really cause he IS mine. well kinda, sorta, almost. basically =] lol hope this doesn't make him mad... but then that would be me being paranoid and im not supposed to do that ...

talk about your busy months.

this is a sort of reminder for myself but here is march for me Starting tomorrow every other day i will be at alissas house having intense singing sessions to learn songs and things for my audition,also shes a math genius so she'll be helping me out in that,we also need to prepare the bags for the party 5,6, or 7 COSI (theatre thing) 7-8 i will be sewing(i need to finish my ouran jacket and my...

I don't love me why should you ?

As these words breeze by I want to be someone else taller, stronger, thinner, prettier just better than me Im dying inside and I know it no doctors need test me I feel it i just want to be someone else i want to be a free lingering spirit a crazy friend that is tortoured but everyone loves anyway a hurt lover who sleeps with you to make themselves feel better no love required the lovable drug...

finally

i committed to a friday evening class of english first for tatum but mostly for myself i got home and ate dinner and here i am i feel grown up matured even i sacrificed something i wouldnt have before to better myself and further myself into the future this is me five classes and a job later after the crying and stuborness after missing you this is me the better me. im not looking for ...

Day 2

I was amazed of how I survived the day looking at it only to find it empty again and again. Maybe by being kept occupied it helped I used to dislike repeating the tedious routine of recording yet today it worked on me it accompanied me through the day * It hurts to know that your name would never flash green again * yet it feels as if all that I'm going through has been ...

if through all the terribleness of being a human, and all my mistakes (bad ones) that i've made throughout this year, still having my friends by my side is a very nice feeling. My best friend means more to me than probably anyone in the world, i would do anything for her actually. tonight is new years eve. I'm excited to finally start a new year, last year based on my actions would probably be ...

Dir En Grey - 我、闇とて･･･ (Ware, Yami Tote...)

限られた時間の狭間で風に染まり 立ち止る俺は誰？ 有り触れた言葉の狭間で壊れていき 繰り返す此処は何処？ 意志を闇に染て 息を断つ事も簡単で・・・だけどまだほんの少し君に触れ� �いたい 生きる事を許してくれますか？ ある日差しの強い朝、目を開き涙が初めて意味に触れられ� �気がしたんだ 傍に君が居ると何故だが悲しい 一つになれないのは何故？ 手を開き壊れそうな言葉でも、ただ一つでもいい その胸に突き刺さる程の刃を心にくれ 代償の儚さ　熟れていき　ただ闇とて 夕暮れ　がなり立てる ある日差しの強い朝、目を開き涙が初めて意味に触れられ� �気がしたんだ 傍に君が居ると何故だが悲しい 一つになれないのは何故？ 手を開き壊れそうな言葉でも、ただ一つでもいい その胸に突き刺さる程の刃を胸に 忘れてしまえば人は変われるもの？ 忘れても、変われても、君でもない事も ...

ive been really ill lately... like flu,but i kept fainting. it was horrible... im scared tow eigh myself but... my parents are both at work and my brother is out getting drunk(its his birthday) so my house is free...and i can go on the wii fit til my heart's content

Christmas!!!!

was pretty sweet!! we went to midnight mass on christmas eve which was pretty  awesome even though i'm not cathcolic and i went to sleep at like 3 am only to be rudely awakened by my sister and brother =/ they were haveing breakfast at  like 4 am but i refused cuz i havent slept much this past week sooo i finally woke up and started reading breaking dawn while waiting for my dad to get home ...