confession of a bleeding heart.

...footnotes from past) not saying UNFAIR, but it hurts. hurts me that i hurt you.::::: back to present: im not sure if u truly understand i drink NOT to get drunk but to subdue the pain of  heightend feelings. to numb temporaily; so that i can focus and laugh. (becuz sometimes i forget - to breath and laugh) that night may have seemed like past horrible happens..but it wasnt. i will not live in ...

Israeli soldiers camouflaged in a field outside Kibbutz Nahal Oz, 25 February 2008 as Palestinians demonstrate against Isralei-imposed restrictions inside the Gaza Strip. Israel fired several canon into the Gaza Strip amid heightend alerts along the entire border with the Gaza Strip as Palestinians demonstrated but did not try to breech the border fence.