...awkward. oh jon, you have to say something i nodded non-commitantly mind sex song came on socially conservative talked over it pretended didn't hear it hoch way pretend not happenign stayed extra day dad recoup still really sore, but dad said he felt like driving fell alseep music on, just swithed hospital waiyting chairs lean clown noses airport fpood awkward ...

OMG please respond im FREAKING out

... weird. My vision is going crazy and i have to like stare at something for a second before i can clearly see it (i have fucking 20/20 vision). What the hell is going on? Have any of you had these exact things happen?? Im drinking water and eating a little piece of chocolate right now but its still happenign. Im so so so scared and i dont know if i should call the hospital.. help please...

Today

... she offered to fuck him and he was considering it! I'm sorry but that is beyodn a joke, he probably has shown C our videos and stuff, what a complete pig! Seriously it's time like this (and they have been happenign heaps over the last yr) that i just think wtf am idoing / was i doing with this person, really. I dont get a sick high out of beign treated like dirt, so wtf! I'm such an idiot, i ...

hills

... am so happy for her right now. Im so relieved her and Ashley speak now. "when I deserve you. then I'll care" HAHAHAHA idiot. I have been pretty quiet again today... it has been happenign alot lately. Maybe something is indirectly bringing me down... or makes everything lack interest. even though I am doing better now. Im not really quiet around Amanda though. I cannot get enough of her. God ...

So with one hand in a fist, please keep one hand in the air

...and my brothers going to europe sunday. He found plane tickets. Round trip and board and breakfast for 700 bucks for my mom and I in Rome which is amazing. It would be amazing. proabably not happenign though. Monique also want to hang out with morgan and i tommrow. Never hiung out wit her before. I dont have any homework thsi weekend. dylans taking singing lessons and going to this school of rock...