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Reminiscing ..looking through old journals... jan.5th.2005 I wanna run away from you I wanna run from the pain I'm going through Too afraid to lose you Too afraid to go on without you This constant pain to the heart of me is so numbing at times yes to firerce Paralyzing it seems, blinding in the dark Never to see the promising light for more than a second If only I could behold truth, so ...