12:01 am

The Prestige was on earlier today. I turned on the TV right at the: -scene I can never get movies I don't finish, or watch the beginning of, out of my head. They'll stick with me until doom's day. Same goes with books, I guess. So fuckedy fucker fuck it, now I'll have to rent The Prestige . And wow, Jackman, a tad bit suicidal, are we?

also .....i weighed myself this morning and im 1 pound away from my first goal wieght. and ive just calculated my bmi and it will be 18.4 weyyyyyyy thats just below underweight woop. (i know those things are shit but hey) anyhow then i go and binge! why am i such a fucking idiot? if i didnt binge today i would feel amazing right now. fuck fuck fuckedy fuck fuck fuck.

KLASSDGSDITGHIIOHDIRYPDH!!!!

...ill go searching for my old razors, and if i find them then oooooo that will be a real test of streangth. giving up cutting is a good thing, but cutting isnt a bad thing... is it? argh fucking fuckedy fuck im so confused.  josh is.... not talking to me it would seem, i dunno whats happend, its all been fine these past few weeks but this since like last thursday hes been bit quiet... bit odd... ...

Thoughtful

... figure if I can survive being a P.C then it shouldn't be to hard to deal with her. Then again she wasn't in my platoon last school year, so I only saw her at lunch and the occasional staff meeting. Fuckedy fuck fuck. I don't think I want to do this shit though. I really want her to dissapear so Rich can take her spot, because he deserves it wayyy better than she does. Owell, it isn't my place to ...