time of reckoning

... in them. found my spiritual guides, and was born into a very real inner world.   And now, in the new year: to understand fully what i want, and to grasp it for myself. The cultivation of a few things. The great, burning aspiration of Hakuin Ekaku; the generosity of spirit and inner fortitude of Marcus Aurelius; and to find joy and laughter and sweetness and relief everywhere I can find it...