.... its like i can never find a happy medium. i dont cut anymore, but i pick at myself. all the time. i dont even know that im doing it anymore. last night i ... worry about all this. i eat, i feel guilty, i dont eat i feel guilty, i look in the mirror and despise ... the recovery they spoke of?? my thoughts havent changed, i dont think i will ever have self esteem, confidence, the ...
... and since I have ***. Oh see... there you get a name. Now it gives the story away I bet. I just can't remember. I wish I did. There's moments I wish I could recreate in my head and I can't. I guess thats the downfall of a traumatizing event. You don't remember because you blocked it. I deleted a chunk...
... being pessimistic. i just, always have this damp outlook on things and it freaking kills me sometimes. i wish i could be more cheery. i have this tendency to overthink and analyze things. i make the most ...likely i will be abiding by all laws hahha. i have moments where i feel "rebellious" haha i sooooo dont put the clothes in the store back on the rack that they came from hahah Are you laid back...
...spending time with friends and talking to girls, but i dont know i cant find anyone i have any feelings for i just feel heartless, cold blooded and i wish i really didnt feel like that, i used to ...be a sweet heart now im just so blank i dont know anyways. this week was pretty cool forgot what i...me to be at this part of our friendship, i dont even know if i should consider her a friend or...
... blood pressure to raise for the first time, I had a partial urinary track infection and I was dehydrated...thats a no good =[ But i dont know what happened to me but i threw out all my laxatives, ipecac, and diet pills. I wish i didnt but in a way if i didnt i would have taken myself to the death, i regret it but what can i do...
...me passes by too fast, but sometimes i just wish it would go faster. I dont wanna be where i am right now. I ...sick of living pay check to pay check. I wish my friends and i werent going through this stage...death and you are taking her for granted. I wish i had the guts to say this to his...isnt my business and i cant butt in. I wish i had someone that cared for my unconditionally....
... be used on a person and I dont allow my own children to use it at all!! 3. Fat... dont be mean, everyone has their own shape...one is perfect in any way so dont be demeaning someone about their weight cause...I am a proud Trekkie and really dont like being called a Trekker... it sounds lame and I wish people would stop using the term so much!! LOL I also dont like it when people confuse Star ...
... be as selfish as you want. Basically wish yourself well and successful. Here, I ... stage. Think of someone neutral and wish them well. It was alright, too. Fourth stage, think of someone you dont like/hate/annoys you and wish them well. This .... So being enlightened means that you dont have a special someone because if u ...'s Hyde Park for you in Autumn :) Dont you ever learn? Curiousity will only ...
i wish i hadn't been so blinded, by so many things i have done in my past all for the sake ... changed, towards me at least, and i am so sad to see that. i really dont believe that i'm his best friend, and that's all i ever wanted. to ... right now i regret being stuck for so long. maybe deep down somewhere i still wish things turned out differently, that i still believed our love was pure & nobody can ...
... i will have to work three 12 hour shifts at children's hospital the weekend before thanksgiving. sometimes i wish i could just shake my head super fast and hard and shake all the memories i dont want to remember out. but, my memory neurons just dont like that so much. and coping can be so hard at times. and for that i am thankful for ...
