Sigh.

Daddy, i really need you this time around. this doesnr feel lky the rest, but somehow it does. i feel lky venting my anger out, but i dont know how. something's somehow's wierd. and i cant put a finger on it. i feel lky i want to give up cuz it feels lky there' no point, but den again, i dont want to cuz i dont want this to be wasted. i really really treasure this. but it feels lky this ...

...bitch my mother said my grandmother was to her. Although my mother is more intelligent and uses more words than physicality. Which makes it worse, saying some pretty hateful things that she starts, and then she doesnr remember starting... blah.  Oh the fuck well, over it, getting a new job or more job, and getting Keri and David out of there is priority number one. Everything else is on the back ...