I want to sleep.

I really do. But I cant. I'd just lie there staring at the ceiling, slipping deeper into insanity... Drugs dont help. Masturbation is fun, but it doesnt really help. Music helps, but I cant have it loud enough. Cutting definitely relaxes me, but i'm checked far too often to make any use of it. I need a cuddlebuddy. Applicants must be slightly chubby.

Still no Dukey

...'t been touched (by Duke or any other random animal that might find it). We're really upset about this, and so are the other animals. Okay, Murphy not so much, but Mister is acting weird. He misses his cuddlebuddy. While 33 degress may not be cold for a lot of you, I'm pretty sure Duke isn't used to it. Hopefully he found somewhere cozy to hang out. Luckily he's fattened up in the last 6 months, ...

... as he is. Makes me joyous on my insides. We'll see where things go, I don't know if he's in a position where he wants a relationship right now, but either way, he's a great friend, cuddlebuddy, and other things. >>; Anyways! School in a week? Ew. But oh well, have to do it. I have tommorow off from work, Pete and I are going to watch the inaguration together and cuddle. It's my first election ...

... don't want a significant other, just someone to cuddle with. I need that closeness. Or, I at least desire that closeness. Know what I'm talking about? There's just something about cuddling with someone that's so comforting and safe. My cuddlebuddy is ill right now and doesn't want to cuddle. She doesn't even want to hug me right now yet she goes up and hugs all her other friends. I'm jealous :(.

Welcome To Your Life

...Sarah... For the circumstances that put me in the position I am in now. Grateful. More so for Ryland than anyone will ever know, than anyone could possibly put into words. My rock and my soulmate and my cuddlebuddy and my compass and my home when I don't know where home is. And for Alesha, because she wasn't the only one who felt alone before we met, and she will probably be the best motivation I...

so...

... and she ended up coming over the next weekend. We watched movies and played games the whole time and it got so late she just ended up sleeping over. So I guess in this moment, I found myself a new cuddlebuddy. I guess it was time to move on from my ex anyway, her having a bf now and all. So weekends of spending time with her ended up in me falling for her. The night before unknowingly our final ...