... werent so old man. sorry, i realise that every para is a different random thought. but im suddenly thinking of alot of things at the same time now. thats how i are (eewwww cheeeesy)        anyway, for my happier life now despite the same circumstance, i have God, Rad, Lex, my fellow attachment-ers, and my secret friend ( of which i cant contacct now cos of my stupid hp)  to thank (: