While I finish my second beer

...BO/ass smell makes me really grateful I quit. 2. beverage: Pyramid Apricot-weizen 3. kiss: it's been awhile, but the idea of kissing someone I'm not really into just feels weird.  I'm being more consciencous now like I should have been before. 4. hug: Yesterday.  Katie hugged me when I went to her Partylight party.  Or was it Candlelight?  The Smelly-Good-Burny-Light Party...there we go. 5. movie ...

I'm too depressed to finish this...but..Finding the DVD Burner

...the best role-models, but gawd damn, it was bad. I know my dad has issues cause his so freakin old fashioned and a fart sometimes, but his wife should know better. I think my Mom was the more consciencous one of my parents. It's pretty sucky...cause culturally...a lot of Mexicans are like my dad and his wife. They were both born down there, and I can understand they have this thing, but it's just ...

... first, not always, but a lot. Like things were fine while we were together, but Im not sure if he ever actively thought about me. I was, just like Johnny said on Christmas Eve, just some girl to take to the movies. I wonder if I'll be more to anyone in my life. Or if I will always just be an afterthought. Already I can see Im drifting out of my friend's consciencous. Whose to say I even exist?