i'm DEFINATELY not writing about my sister or my cat haha im reall really stressed out =( i have my last national registrty test (the dreaded written test) tomorow and im freakin i've had nightmares about this since last october, when i started school and now the time has come... i probably shouldnt be worried, i passed al the tests in class, and the practical registry test... but somehow i am im...
i am in a flunk stuck inside a home that is not mine, in a life that is not mine i have changed i want *me* back. in the mirror i see a stranger atleast before i saw someone that i hated fear, lust, revenge, a violent catastrophe. is this my own hate inspired world? it is numb and dark here behind the glass behind the glass (behind me) are reflections of a world untasted my senses are stripped, ...
theres a girl that i like, got my attention, got me going wish i could flirt a little with her without my feelings showing doesn't speak my language but if i could just show her a little i know that i could get her but the connection is so brittle so thin i'm scared to try it it could break at any time it could easily all go south if we decide to cross that line But all these ...
i feel stupid i wanted to delete my lj start a new one but I figured, i can't get rid of 6 years worth of entries so i decided i should just go back and edit some and delete certain entries and .... i'm stupid i'm barely going the the beginning entries and just reading them makes me sick "i love andre" what did i know back then? "james is awesome!" stupid friendship is now down the drain and ...
for some reason i have a horrible feeling something within me has changed i came home tonight and felt sick..... not physically sick..... my mind has just been racing and i feel restless as all hell all this after spending time with a bunch of my closest and most trusted friends....... i come home and feel emotionless...... and feeling bizarrely detached from everything going on around me ...
No one knows how you feel No one there you’d like to see The day was dark and full of pain You write help with you own blood Cuz hope is all you’ve got You open up your eyes but nothing has changed I don’t want to cause you trouble Don’t wanna stay too long I just came there to say to you Turn around I am here If you want it’s me you'll see Doesn’t count far or near I can...
i felt compelled to go there so many things have changed the walkway leading up to the block the extra lifts present as i looked at the children playing i felt a pang of familiarity some things still remained as it is though the small shop is there that uncle, but he looks a tad older as i when up to the 12th storey i felt nervous out of a sudden i don know why maybe afraid of seeing an old ...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 18th to fishy!! ah gong yu. finally turned 18! and yes, what so good about being 18? can go pubs to chill instead of lousy places like macs and kopitiams. right now we only left with joanne before we can start going to chill out together at a much chilling place yea. and oh yea, not to mention, 18 18!! allegible of going to jail!! so please ah please ah, dont anyhow go around ...
i feel really refreshed, i just walked for miles and thought about everything it was nice being with my family atcually..i usually hate shit like that but it really was nice there's nothing to really write, nothings really on my mind expect things that would offend people i was thinking about how diffrent i am than last year. i remember giving damon so much shit about smoking and everything, ...
So first off I'm writing on my new sidekick...I love this thing. Anyways lauren and I are friends again....yeah its been a while since I last updated this thing I know. Not much else has changed I'm 19 but I still feel 18 I dnt know life is kinda weird right now Like I have so much and I'm so lucky but I dnt know if om truely happy you know? I need to update on a computer this keybored is ...
