New pictures are up

20091028 PS - eldorado snow 014 Originally uploaded by dailymom . Ok so I have loaded a bunch of new pictures. Austin Lego League field trip to the Eldorado water bottleing facility CU game snow storm and assorted fall photos. enjoy.

Shiny Shiny Na No Da!

...re smart and sly. They are protective and caring of their families, like me. How often do you cry in a day? In a day, I don't know but I do cry often. A lot of times before crying I've been bottleing a lot of emotions up and they all come out at once . Pick any object of your choice I-pod   Why that? I can't get through a day feeling right without music If a random person walks up to you and ...

ahh ah ah

... i take her stuff then leaves her stuff and comes up here 2 the computer lab. uuuuuuuuhhhhhhh y is she so fucking nuts, whats wrong with just talking about how u feel like a normal fucking person instead of bottleing it all fucking up and puttting it in some fucking online journal or writing it down. aahhhhh i sucks because she is finally starting 2 open up 2 me, like earlier 2 day she wrote me a ...

Endure

..., and I guess I go back to my old self now mind you Im only doing this to spare myself any further and future disapointment. I donno what to do about this frustration about everything thats going on, bottleing everything up seems like the only thing that works dispite what it will enevatbly do to me its how I deal all in all this will solve itself one way or the other Im just playing the waiting ...

At the beginning once more...

... know and love are all so far away that I feel so alone at the times so I guess that is why I thought have a journal once more might be a good idea just to pour my thoughts and feelings into instead of bottleing up in me until I have a break down. My friends are all at unis now up and down the country which is a new exsperience not having them around like I was so use to. My parents are in an odd ...

... and you diddnt i felt like you diddnt even care about how i felt like i was dead to you. im write this to get everything i would talk to you about if the situation was flip out since i have been bottleing these feelings up so muhc, i know what you thinking you have ash kalia margaux thinking about it i know i do but there are reason i dont talk to them about this stuff , kalia: is way to hard to ...

Proust!

...) the indeterminate temp quart of water, the lemons, limes, honey, ginger and hops for about 20 minutes Proof the yeast in 1/4 cup lukewarm water, set aside After 20, strain the concction into your bottleing bucket (or carboy, or whatever). Immediately add the 2 quarts of cold water. Check temp - it should be in the 70-90 range, perfect for the yeast. Add yeast and remaining water, mix, ...

..., I don't feel anything but guilt...sometimes a little bit lonely. I still get the sudden shots of wanting to go back...but something stops me...I cry so much inside and out, It's just a really deep lonely feeling... I can't really explain. I want to regret everything but most of it dosn't even live in my mind anymore...I've done a good job of forgetting...or bottleing it all up for good maybe...