My Modest Cellar

... Barton, St Julien 2000 Chateau Pontensac, Medoc 2000 Louis Jadot, Clos des Corvees, Vosne-Romanee 2001 Chateau D'Etroyes, Mercurey 2005 Pierre Andre, Volnay 1er Cru, En Cheuret 2005 Jean Claude Balland, Santeney 1er Cru, Les Graviere 2005 Clos de L'Oratoire des Papes, Chateau-neuf-du-Pape 2006 Hautes-Cotes de Nuits, Les Damed Huguettes 2005 Pio Cesare, Nebbiolo 2006 Matayac, Cahors 2005...

why does this hurt so bad?

i still feel inadequate still incomplete still confused still waiting still anxious and afraid my stomachs still churning my heart is still yearning nothings fixed nothing i dont know why I even did what I did kyle says because i did it wrong and now i'll spend this  whole week thinking about what could have happened if i did things right? i just want to curl in a ball and you know the rest :[

from atlantic to pacific, gee the traffic is terrific

huh you know I just noticed I have been fighting with EVERYONE first marisa then mom dad nikki who else? renee? courtney? jarrell (he cant get mad at me) independence? charlotte? north carolina? THE UNITED STATES? THE WORLD?? THE UNIVERSE??? that would explain alot now, marisa apologized on the phone the other day but, I really dont feel like calling not that I dont want to...

this has possibly been one of the longest most depressing days of my entire life. and there isn't a fuckin thing I can do. I mean what am I going to do leave everything? yeah real fuckin likely. time has had it's way with me these broken and tired hands can't build a thing the empty I have fed has made me numb despite what you will find me in the failures of my past just swell beneath...

"Reasons to Live"

I think I might seriously be bi-polar. "just think of all the thoughts wasted on you" I am seriously fucking up. I am supposed to be prepping for cal state fullerton. I have wasted everyone's time and all of my money. I keep skipping all of my classes. I tell myself to go but I am in a horrible funk. I am just so miserable. I cry myself to sleep everynight. It isn't a show. It isn't because...

9-11... no, I didn't forget

So, this day has come again Within the cycle of the When But I’ll not bow my head and cry As I remember those that died The little children at day care And those running down the stair The pilots in the planes that day And fanatics after innocents to slay No, I’ll keep these grey eyes dry And this little head held high Though once again I hear the screams And see the tinkling glass that gleams...

August 1st

I am three seconds from throwing up my 3 hours sore insides. I came to the harsh realization that people change. I honestly feel like I am suffocating. And I feel like curling up into a ball And crying For hours. As much as I try to make it, its not always about you.

MARANDA'S GOT A SQUEEZE BOX, KERED NEVER SLEEPS AT NIGHT

(10:49:12 AM) Kered Cloudsong : you want to see the kind of brain trusts live around this shithole? (10:49:21 AM) Kered Cloudsong : i've got a news story for you O_O (10:49:47 AM) Kered Cloudsong : http://www.boston.com/news/local/articles/2008/02/28/exchange_student_says_he_was_denied_adequate_food/ (10:51:55 AM) Juh-howh Cable : "The truth is, the boy we hosted for nearly six ...

Almost Lover

This song is named "Almost Lover" It is by: A Fine Frenzy Your fingertips across my skin The palm trees swaying in the wind Images You sang me Spanish lullabies The sweetest sadness in your eyes Clever trick I never want to see you unhappy I thought you'd want the same for me                           (Chorus) Goodbye, my almost lover Goodbye, my hopeless ...

A Perfect Day?

Naked Fondue Sex on a yoga ball And a swim with the sharks...... http://www.serenawet.com