Maybe It's better if we'll just say goodbye

...year and five months or more... he's been so cold lately, colder than ever... I know he doesnt care but these  days it's much worse... All he do is break up with me and said that he cant stand me anymre then he would come beck... I'm getting tired, I stopped saying goodbye but now he's the one doing what I did before... I dont know what to do, i'm so fed up.. He breaks his promises even swears and...

you hui lai lerhs...hais...

  zz...-.-...at first I tot todae will b a bright dae...since dere is no normal act...and only nid do slacky stuffs...lyk cutting out th notes and painting th picture ( which we ruined it >

When you're broken, in a million little pieces.

.... JUST RIP MY FUCKING SOUL OUT WHY DON'T YOU? HER FUCKING FACE. SHE IS BEAUTIFUL. I CAN'T DO THIS. I CAN'T. "HEY. I'MHERE. BLINK IF YOU CAN HEAR ME." OH MY GOD. I HONESTLY CATN EVEN TYPE ANYMRE. I CN'T SEE. I JUST… *INSERT LIKE 10 MINUTES OF TIFF HYSTERICALLY CRYING* SERIOUSLY, I HAVE NOT CRIED THIS HARD SINCE THE FINALE OF THE WEST WING. AND EVEN THEN I DON'T KNOW IF IT WAS THIS BAD. I CANNOT ...

I can't even think of a witty subject.

... lazenich urrrrrgh *vomits on that Gene Hunt* lazenich I like how they had to explain the title lazenich I mean yeah, they do that in the opening to the show lazenich but it's like they had to reassure people that it would not be set on Mars reaperfox hah, the video's not working for me anymre. lazenich lucky duck! In summary: Oh, America.

... , i reflected on myself for the past days ; broke down yesterday . i realized i should start priortizing things around me and should stop foooling around . yes i know , i should have done that long ago . sighs . i cant believe till now after all the cryings&complains that i actually miss the chances to complete my own dream .  urgh . the chancesss (!!) ohgawd . dont feel like typing anymre  : (

i h8 insects .

... the time , and to see if there's any sight of the fly stuck near me or somewhere on my bed . my ipod was on for the whole night . terrible . i is tired now .  and i dont feel like going out anymre . but people are alrdy on the way to town alrdy and i cant bear to tell em i dont feel like going out . so here i am sitting here , not moving a single inch , watching the time ticks. hwahwa .  miss ...

... now. i'm starting to feel so scared. so so scared of losing you. esp when you said you dont knw hw to make me happy anymre. and all you did was msg me. you didnt even bother to call me. you know how heartbroken i am right now, and how scared i am? i dont knw what to do. shit. i cant go on anymre. maybe i shall continue another time.

I'm tired of playing this little charade

... the harder I'll get hurt. I want to be as close to him as possible, but I feel like I've given him all capability in the world to break my heart. Even if he doesn't, I feel like I'm waiting for him to. I want that to change. I want to be able to love him, no strings attatched. No fear. Why is it that I feel like I don't belong? ): (SHIT I DON'T THINK HE'S IN COUNCILLOR ANYMRE! Damn) 

exhausted;

3 days straight of beaches; east coast park, changi beach, labrador park. today morning is npcc, went to Kranji War Memorial. there's so many British soldiers out there, and the tombstones are quiete eerie. the atmosphere is cold, sad, spooky.  stood there for abt an hour, legs all cramp. the girls from the american school sang songs, and their voices are (high pitched)?! i don't like. ...

Incompatible, It don't matter though..

...face this maturely. I went your way cos i want you to be happy, and i didn't wanna continue this torture anymre. I didn't cry cos i don't wanna make you feel guilty. I didn't make a big fuss outta this..., i don't wanna be your bestfriend. I feel so insecured. But i don't have a place in your heart anymre. I'm scared, i'm really scared you'll fall in love with another  her . But even if you really do...