i know im not suppose to "take is slow nor ride it low" now, but well, everyone knows about the turtle and rabbit story i assumed? okay, prelims are arriving way faster then F1 race cars cause there never seemed to be enough time to finish studying! and i used to be complaining about studying during o levels when i took abt 8 subjects? yet now im only taking 6 and im struggling like mad. but its not my fault! the depth is like bottomless pit for ALL a levels subjects. well, this holiday has indeed been full of its up and downs but now, im at the top of that sine curve so im pretty much happy over everything now.

plus i've decided to open my small little heart and accept everyone flaws from now on and be happy and not pissed easily! i've realised that my heart got smaller and smaller because it just felt that im giving more then im receiving! thats prolly why i felt damn weird the last few weeks in school and was easily pissed off and kept shooting people! its time for me to be happy and accept everyone for who she/he is! yes. im going to be determined to do it and enjoy the last few weeks i have left in school! im not going to let anyone/anything ruin it from now on! (yes, even maths teachers!) hahaha. im going to embrace everyone and be happy!

"how many times have i been stupidly using the word "I", if only i cared about the other 6 billon people..." from a disney movie! (cant rmb the title now so that shall be it)

so im not going to keep putting myself in first place and let others be happy! if letting them control, letting them be themselves makes them happy, then i'll be happy too! whats the point in harping people's flaws and weaknesses when we ourselves have them too (though not as serious i presume.) but yes, i'm going to be happy!

YES, im going to be happy and smiley!

nothing is going to get me down!

YES, for the greater good!!

btw i've decided to be friendly to friends who don't have LJ and post some public still(:

PS. im going to be happy with every little thing because i knew how it felt when the whole world came tumbling down w/o a reason, when i lost direction. thanks for everything, thanks for enduring me and thanks for staying by with me!(: and thanks for lunch!

PSS. im going to also be happy with all the friends around me, who stood by me and cared for me. although some may not show as much as the other, but well, thanks for everything! thanks for making me feel happy and comforted and thanks for making me feel wanted. thankyou my whole bbgt, thanks 0716. im not going to be very hard to converse with anymore, im going to accept everything with an open heart!(: im not going to be stingy, not going to be hard to handle, im going to be nice.

YES, im nice! =)

PSSS. okay, i sound like im doing my new year resolution, but well, holidays do make you think a lot and make you wonder about who you really are sometimes doesn't it? hahaha. no, im not crazy yet, im still very much sane!

so PSSSS. im going to be a happy girl! and bring happiness to others as well! yipeeeeeeeeeee(: